My engineer and engineer-to-be (eldest daughter) came home to me sobbing uncontrollably in the living room over my bear nose situation. They assure me that they will be able to come up with some way to help me to be able to continue making my bears. I truly hope so. Just typing this is making me well up again.
I'm sorry to be such a downer today--every day I try really hard to stay positive and to focus on all the blessings in life. It's just that I have lost so many, many things over the years to this disease. I have been frightened for months that my hands were going to give in (my hands have been in a lot of pain for quite some time) and that I was going to have to give up my bear-making.
I feel heart-broken. Bear-making is my passion. It's my primary tool for fighting the blues and to deal with the pain and isolation.
Much to my dismay, I might have to put the bears aside for a while so that I can figure out other ways to make bear noses. I usually embroider 2-3 layers, but there is no way that I can reasonably continue that. I have to find a way to use only one layer--that's assuming I'll be able to continue to embroider. Hand-sculpted clay noses might be one way to go. Needle-felting may or may not work--the "engineers" are working on that issue, too. I'll look into leather noses as well. (Thanks, Deb!)
Thanks for listening to my ranting. I'm sure I'll pull myself together soon. I really appreciate all of your thoughts and concerns. I feel truly blessed.
Heaps of Hugs,