Thursday, February 2, 2012

The Sprite that Helps Us Grow

Creativity is a funny thing.  Lately, I've been feeling dissatified with my bears.  Now don't take this post as a begging one to get compliments and reassurance--it's not intended that way.  What I'm really doing is "thinking out loud," so to speak, and sharing my thoughts in case they might be helpful to any of you.  I'm wondering if creativity grows and changes when we attend to these raw feelings rather than ignore them.  Every time in the past when I've gotten this edgy, gnawing, dissatisfied, and uncomfortable feeling with my art, a time of great growth and creativity have soon followed. 

However, sitting in this mire of edginess is so uncomfortable.  Part of me asks, why don't I just ignore this gnawing feeling seething under my skin and move on.  But then another part of me says, if I stick with this yucky feeling and work through the discomfort, I may wind up at a better place in my art.  To be honest, it's much more comfortable to just keep creating the same thing over and over rather than to have to sit with this yucky state of being.  Could this feeling be what holds us back from growing as artists and as people? 

Yesterday afternoon I was sitting with some friends and we were contemplating how learning and growth works--remember we're some of those crazy people who homeschool our children and think in depth about these sorts of things.  Specifically, we were talking about how it's the things we don't want to do and don't like that are exactly the things we must focus on.  For example, if a kid is having trouble with a certain musical piece and simply hates it, then he shouldn't practice everything else in depth and then just do a cursory play of the hated piece.  Instead, he needs to really pick apart the dreaded music and work through it. 

When we were talking, we realized that this is the way it works with all learning endeavors.  Well, I suppose my brain was still twirling this about overnight and now the little edgy feeling I have been ignoring has become a big edgy feeling that I'm going to have to work out.  I now realize that this little gnawing feeling is like a gift if we focus on it.  It applies to growth in scholarly things, in creativity, in spirituality, and in an unknown number of deeply personal matters.  It's like our own little gift.  Like a little sprite who taps us on the shoulder to wake us up.



Whew!  Okay, now it's time to lighten up and just let that stuff simmer in my brain for a bit.  I guess time will tell what happens and what manifests from this troublesome little pixie.

Take good care of yourself!
Heaps of Hugs,
Cheryl

11 comments:

  1. I know what you mean, others think you're mad to want to make changs. I think as long as it makes you think, grow, it can't be a bad thing. Theres never an end, never the perfect pattern or bear so go wit it, we'll be with you!

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  2. What a lovely thing to say, Amanda! Thank you!

    Heaps of Hugs,
    Cheryl

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  3. i know exactly where youre coming from cheryl , that empty feeling of dissatisfaction when i finish a bear lets me know i have to try the things im shying away from , but oh the wonderful feeling when you acheive what you set out thinking you couldnt do , and it seems to be a circle that keeps us growing , your bears are wonderful and im sure whatever you do they still will be

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  4. I'm so glad to hear that I'm not alone in this--I had a feeling that most of us deal with these times. And, yes, it's so wonderful getting a bit closer to what you are looking for. You are so right that it's just a big circle that we go around and around! Thanks!

    Heaps of Hugs,
    Cheryl

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  5. Oh yes, you're definitely not the only one. Which is why I have a half finished panda looking accusingly at me, which it's been doing for the last 6 months (oops!) Anyway, looking forward to seeing what the wee sprite brings out :o)

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  6. I'm looking forward to what the wee sprite brings out, too, Katy! I wonder what it will be?

    Heaps of Hugs,
    Cheryl

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  7. Cheryl I hear ya. I have been playing around with making vintage style bears as that is not the norm for me. Now I want to try another style. Can't seem to put my finger on what will cme next so just let it come!!! Katy I have some half finished bears here looking at me to.

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  8. Oh Yes Cheryl...I too get this feeling ALOT! I really embrace it because it allows me to just be creative and develop new designs. I get really bored making the same things over and over too and I believe the secret to success is to always be "evolving" in your work, yet stay true to your style :)
    My opinion...have fun with it...it's a good thing!

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  9. I love how you describe the edginess that can lead to great gifts--that's a fantastic way of looking at it! I have another artist friend who seems to be going through this right now, so we've been talking about it too. Lot's of great food for thought here on your blog--I'm so glad I found your blog today! :-) Jennifer

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  10. Thank you so much for your wonderful comments, Linda, Wendy, and Plushpussycat. It's so interesting to see that so many other artists get these feelings when a new creative change is on the horizon.

    Heaps of Hugs,
    Cheryl

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  11. Cheryl..I get these feelings all the time, and I use to get angry with myself and think that I was just not capable of sticking with something. But now, I realize it seems to just be the way I work. For me, I think of that feeling as my little artistic self pushing me in new..meant to be...directions.

    Jump feet first into those murky waters and see what transpires.

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